I had the day to myself.
I woke up when I wanted to. I took a long shower. Finished sewing a quilt top. Watched movies (four of them!) with ratings above PG. I got part of some new quilt blocks cut out. I ate what I wanted to eat. But that left me alone with my thoughts.
Every other minute I thought about them. I missed every giggle and every mess. I missed kisses with little fingers laced around my neck.
I would miss them even if I had never known them. Always in those places in my heart.
Tonight it is just Olive and I so I turn up the heated blanket on the other side of the bed to imagine Scott is here.
And I would miss him if we had never met. The smirk that is always on the corner of his mouth and the way his eyes glint just before he says something funny.
Hurry, tonight, so I and hold those hands and see those smiles.
I know what you mean, I would miss my hubby even if we had never met. The other day i spoke to him about this and said “I love to think we’d have still found each other anyway – but realistically if we lived far apart and never met would you be married now do you think?” to which he replied “no – I never wanted to get married, never even though about it – until I met you and couldn’t imagine letting you go and not being married to you and having a family and life with you. If we never met I’d just be single (or at least not in long term relationships) and live alone.”
It made me feel warm and tingly lol